Fashion, Trends & Style

At 32, one of my frustration is having a place of my own. I’ve always wanted to move out of my parents’ house since I turned 30, but since I got pregnant and had a baby I realized I still cannot afford to live on my own. I thought when my baby turns 2 by then I would have enough savings to find a place that I could rent and finally move out but again something came up and I think I still cannot move out this time and maybe it will take more than 2 years for me to afford to live on my own. So since that won’t be possible yet, I decided to buy my own home flat mounts television for me and for my Liam. It’s not my own place but at least I have my own television set.

I was watching a family movie yesterday. I was so impressed with the little girl in the movie because she was good at playing the oboe. Her mom supported her with her talent and even bought her the best oboe there is in the market. She bought her oboe reeds at wwbw , the little girl was so happy when she saw what her mother bought for her. I wonder what musical instrument my little boy would want to play someday.

Last Friday night I thought of the worst thing a mother could ever think of, thought of not wanting a child, my own child to be born. Fell asleep after crying for almost two hours then had a very beautiful dream. I saw my beautiful baby, she has black curly hair, round black eyes with perfectly shaped nose. It was as if my baby wanted to tell me “No mommy, don’t ever think of not wanting me to be born on this world, see how pretty I am”. When I woke up I was crying again. The guilt struck me, felt so embarrassed, ashamed of myself. What kind of a person, a mother I am. I am sorry my darling mommy will never think of that ever again. I will never ever make you feel you are not wanted.

Saw this sign just outside look here for nags head real estate, I was intrigued and looked it up. Their homes are top of the class. Anyone would want to live there. How I wish I could buy my very own house there someday. As for now all I can do is make it my inspiration in striving hard so that I can save and someday afford one.  There is nothing wrong with dreaming right, plus its for free.

Been sleeping uncomfortably lately. I don’t really know why but I have to find a way to sleep better because its making me very weak. My whole body is aching, muscle soar all over. I remember my mom told me about her bed mattress back in Florida. She said it was the kind where the foam has some sort of memory where it conforms to the body shape of the one sleeping on it, which in turn makes sleeping a whole lot better. If that would make my rest at night better I think I should start looking for memory foam toppers here.

Photo was taken last Sunday, Liam was invited to a Mickey Mouse themed birthday party. My cute little Mickey Mouse!

When I first saw the irig line of multimedia devices I must say I was impressed. Each and every device was made with pure precession and was thought of  by the people behind it. Each apparatus can be rated and be placed on top of each category. They are indeed good and beautiful, simply amazing not to mention affordable. It is each musician’s dream to have his own and now it will no longer be a dream.

Back when I was younger,when I was still in gradeschool I would always be excited whenever our teacher would tell us that we are going on a fieldtrip. It was always music to our ears. Now that I am all grown up I am still all hyped up to go on field trips but this time I am excited to visit music store just like next week we are planning to go and visit ableton live 8 guitar center, geez I cannot wait.

This was done a few days before his first birthday. There is this old belief here in the Philippines, a baby is only allowed to have his haircut only when he turns 1 year old.

I was so dismayed with the crib I bought for Liam. When I got home last night I saw the crib dismantled, the sitter told me she just heard something ticked then it all started to crumble. I was desperate and wanted to fix it myself. Looked for the possible part that gave in which caused the entire crib to fall apart, then I saw this hex head cap screws under our bed and I tried to figure out where they went but I just couldn’t put them all together again. Its like humpty dumpty who sat on the wall. (LOL).